Heck ... my life these days is so very busy...
all day i m making class diagrams, making code-structures, sitting in design discussions, and staying up late to finish up work. The deadlines are getting really tight...
but otherwise life s fine, just a little tired these days. And also a feeling of fear as every year I suffer from a bad time syndrome, starting right from today.
Guess this started from class 12, when I had a near-fatal accident on this day...was in hospital for quite some time...and from then onwards every year I face really bad luck for a couple of months starting from today....and I am really scared.
I have tried to work out of this, but the incidents around me during these days generally manage to reinforce my belief about this period.
And there is not much actually going on in my life to talk about....though I still wonder why did I had the heart break a few months ago....well I am trying very hard but at lonely moments....I really miss someone to share my feelings with.
I am back to my lonely life again, and I now guess this is my destiny. If this is, I choose to accept it. After the recent happenings in my personal life, I am not left with much strenght to fight again....
lets see which way life turns in the coming month....towards me or farther away from me...
Just to quote something I remembered from shrek 2: "I'll die at your ruins..but I hope that you're happy"...
Re vera, cara mea, mea nil refert.
adios...
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Proud to be...an Indian
Found this profile of an Indian on http://www.blogthings.com/Indian.html
Just loved the last one!!!!
ciao...
You Know You're Indian When.... |
Your dad is some sort of engineer or doctor. Your parents say, "Don't forget your heritage." You know what's going to happen in every Hindi movie before it happens You're father and grandfathers have hair on their ears An Asian woman comes on campus and people ask: "Is that your mother? Well then, is it your sister?" Your relatives' houses smell like incense, mothballs or both Your parents say, "Calculus? I took calculus in 8th grade!!" You either really, really want to go to NYU or really, really want to stay away from it "You want a stereo! When I was your age, I didn't even have shoes!" Your dad still pulls his socks up to his knees, you know, the ones with the blue and pink stripes at the top. Your family owns a tennis racquet. You buy corn oil by the gallon. Your family owns butcher knives bigger than your head. You arrive one or two hours late to a party and think it's normal. Everyone in your family has pet names, which sound nowhere close to their real names. You are standing next to the two largest suitcases at the Airport. You talk for an hour at the front door when leaving someone's house. When your parents meet strangers and talk for a few minutes, you discover you're talking to a distant cousin. Your parents don't realize phone connections to foreign countries have improved in the last two decades, and still scream at the top of their lungs when making long distance calls. There is a sale on any item, you buy 100 of them. You have a 'Singer Brother' sewing machine at home. Your mother has a minor disagreement with her (or your dad's) sister and doesn't talk to her for ten years. You hide everything from your parents. Your mother does everything for you if you are male. You do all the housework and cooking if you are female. Your relatives alone could populate a small city. Everyone is a family friend. You know no one who has studied music. You went to a university as far away from home as possible. You still came back home to live with your parents after you had finished. Your best friend got married at the age of 16. You like the meat well done. You eat onions with everything. You use chilli sauce instead of tomato ketchup. You say you hate Indian films but secretly watch them with your parents. You teach Westerners swearwords in your language. You order Indian food in your own language to impress the people you're with but the waiters don't understand you. You avoid public places when with a member of the opposite sex, especially if there is an acquaintance within a 250 miles radius. You always say "open the light" instead of "turn the light on". You secure your baggage with a rope. You're walking out of customs with your trolley at the airport and you see all twenty-five members of your family who have come to pick you up. You go back to your parents' country and people treat you like a member of...the royal family. You're parents would freak out if your sister wore a crop top baring her midriff...but wearing a sari is perfectly acceptable Your parents call all your friends "Beta" whether they are Indian or not Your parent are panicking if you aren't married when you turn 25 Either you really like Indians of the opposite sex or you can't stand them Your mother measures wealth in gold and diamonds A horoscope must decide your wedding date Your parents drink 6 cups of tea a day You are sick and tired of answering questions about "the dot" Your friends could not explain your religion to someone if they tried You could not explain your religion to someone if you tried You have cousins you have never met, whose names you don't know, but who insist they're related to you, even though they bear NO resemblance to...anyone YOU know. Your parents push the concept of an arranged marriage on you and try and demonstrate how well it works whenever they're not fighting. You notice that whenever you go to another Indian's house, your parents always talk about work and business. The second you pull out of someone's driveway, your parents start talking...about them. Every few months your parents say when they're moving back to India No one ever seems to call ahead of time to say they are coming over for a visit. You're proud to be Indian - and you pass these jokes on to all your Indian friends! |
Just loved the last one!!!!
ciao...
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
New pope!!
This just in...the world has a new pope...Cardinal Joseph Ratzinger...Pope Benedict XVI
Just checked out cnn.com....the smoke is finally white..and christians all over the world have a new leader.
I was a great fan of the late John Paul 2, particularly after having read an article on him in the readers digest. A great person who even met the guy who shot at him, and forgave him!! Someone who had seen a lot oftough times in his early days in Poland...but he did a lot for his "Mater Polonia" (Mother Poland) after he became Pope.
A really great person who had broken all rules when it came to meeting the common pubilc. Someone who canonised a lot of saints around the world.
John Paul 2 might be orthodox considering his stand on issues like abortion, birth control, cloning etc. but his immense humanity covers for it all. One of the most wonderful people to have ever lived.
They say that you need two miracles to become a saint. But for John Paul 2, there wouldn't be a shortage of miracles, considering that he lead christianity during very tough & changing times.
John Paul 2, may you rest in peace.
And may your new successor carry forward the good work that you have done....
The only one thing that I rue is that there were a few childhood idols whom I thought I'd meet when I grew up. One was Mother Teresa, another was John Paul 2...... well it seems that this wish of mine remains unfulfilled....
May there be peace in the world.....
adios
Just checked out cnn.com....the smoke is finally white..and christians all over the world have a new leader.
I was a great fan of the late John Paul 2, particularly after having read an article on him in the readers digest. A great person who even met the guy who shot at him, and forgave him!! Someone who had seen a lot oftough times in his early days in Poland...but he did a lot for his "Mater Polonia" (Mother Poland) after he became Pope.
A really great person who had broken all rules when it came to meeting the common pubilc. Someone who canonised a lot of saints around the world.
John Paul 2 might be orthodox considering his stand on issues like abortion, birth control, cloning etc. but his immense humanity covers for it all. One of the most wonderful people to have ever lived.
They say that you need two miracles to become a saint. But for John Paul 2, there wouldn't be a shortage of miracles, considering that he lead christianity during very tough & changing times.
John Paul 2, may you rest in peace.
And may your new successor carry forward the good work that you have done....
The only one thing that I rue is that there were a few childhood idols whom I thought I'd meet when I grew up. One was Mother Teresa, another was John Paul 2...... well it seems that this wish of mine remains unfulfilled....
May there be peace in the world.....
adios
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Long time no blabber....
so here I go again....
Just had a bad experience with insurance & bank guys....that goes on to prove my belief : "As long as you are not their customer, you are the king. When you are a customer, THEY are the kings"
Yup this one left a bad taste in my mouth..(and reduced my bank balance by around 8k.) just because my stupid insurance agent told me that clearance dates for my ECS are from 1st to 7th every month, and the stupid bank sends my ECS on 27th every month... so I got fined for an ECS bounce(just like a cheque bounce)..for no fault of mine...and I had to shell out double the premium for my policy.....too bloody bad!!!
I just hoped these people learned to be a bit "customer friendly" as mentioned in that freakin customer satisfaction doc....
And yet, somehow, life manages to go on....in its own rythm.....unconcerned with everything going around it (and also in it)!!
Though what amazes me is the wonderful attitude that people have. And also the oh-so-frequent mood swings. Welll......
This week has been less hectic on my schedules, and I've begun to play badminton again...though I've lost rythm & form, but some practice will do good.
And so went another week......
And before I go, a latin phrase I found very much to my liking :
Just had a bad experience with insurance & bank guys....that goes on to prove my belief : "As long as you are not their customer, you are the king. When you are a customer, THEY are the kings"
Yup this one left a bad taste in my mouth..(and reduced my bank balance by around 8k.) just because my stupid insurance agent told me that clearance dates for my ECS are from 1st to 7th every month, and the stupid bank sends my ECS on 27th every month... so I got fined for an ECS bounce(just like a cheque bounce)..for no fault of mine...and I had to shell out double the premium for my policy.....too bloody bad!!!
I just hoped these people learned to be a bit "customer friendly" as mentioned in that freakin customer satisfaction doc....
And yet, somehow, life manages to go on....in its own rythm.....unconcerned with everything going around it (and also in it)!!
Though what amazes me is the wonderful attitude that people have. And also the oh-so-frequent mood swings. Welll......
This week has been less hectic on my schedules, and I've begun to play badminton again...though I've lost rythm & form, but some practice will do good.
And so went another week......
And before I go, a latin phrase I found very much to my liking :
sum ergo edo
means
oops...lunchtime .... gotta go...
caio
Monday, April 11, 2005
Something just wonderful...
Not my rambling today...but a beautiful piece of poetry that found its way into my mailbox as a fwd: . .. . . its wonderful....and here's how it goes:
SLOW DANCE
Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask "How are you?"
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say "Hi"?
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift.... Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.
Left speechless after this one...
adios.
SLOW DANCE
Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask "How are you?"
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say "Hi"?
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift.... Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.
Left speechless after this one...
adios.
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Hope
what a wonderful four letter word...probably the second best word in English(after Sorry), that everyone relies on....
Someone once said," the entire world relies on hope!" . Very true. Hope is the only thing that remains with a person till his very end.
I still remember a wonderful story about hope that I had read in 3rd grade. It was titled "Pandora's Box". When the box was opened, lots of troubles & problems came out of the box into the world. But from underneath them all came out Hope. And hope has been with manknd ever since. Great story,this.
Whatever be the origins, hope lingers around always. There is always a hope that things would turn out better. Always a hope that wrongs would be set right, always a hope that life will be good to you.....always a hope.
Although it sounds more like making false promises to yourself in the time of hardship, but hope certainly brings a cheer to you, even if you know that you are hoping against hope. Its that little relief that comes along with hope makes it all the more better.
And I'm still hoping..........for better times, for my life to come back to me......still hoping.....against all hope......
ciao
Someone once said," the entire world relies on hope!" . Very true. Hope is the only thing that remains with a person till his very end.
I still remember a wonderful story about hope that I had read in 3rd grade. It was titled "Pandora's Box". When the box was opened, lots of troubles & problems came out of the box into the world. But from underneath them all came out Hope. And hope has been with manknd ever since. Great story,this.
Whatever be the origins, hope lingers around always. There is always a hope that things would turn out better. Always a hope that wrongs would be set right, always a hope that life will be good to you.....always a hope.
Although it sounds more like making false promises to yourself in the time of hardship, but hope certainly brings a cheer to you, even if you know that you are hoping against hope. Its that little relief that comes along with hope makes it all the more better.
And I'm still hoping..........for better times, for my life to come back to me......still hoping.....against all hope......
ciao
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