Laziness..thy name is....

me, of course. Who else can be so lazy as to create a new post even after opening the "create" page of blogger once every day? And who else can be so lazy to not blog-hop for so many days....

But the truth is that lazy is not the accurate word to describe my state right now. I am kind of busy-in-office-occupied-in-mind state that does not allow you to do much. So I rather prefer to call myself lazy, plus this gives me a lot of excuses otherwise too.

There's been too much going on, too much to the extent that I am not behaving like myself. Fending off Mom's anxious queries "beta(that's son, for the non-hindi speakers) are you all right? You seem to be worried?" with a careless yes-mom-im-fine-its-just-the work statement.But am I really fine? I know I am not, coz this is not how I am...useless blabber this one was.

anyways...

and at this moment I am quickly trying to hop thru all the blogs I usually read, just to work away my potential guilt...tough job, but I 'm trying ok...

There's so much I want to do...but all I end up soing is procrastinate(did I spell it right?)..hell I don't know why but this is becoming one of my favourite past-times recently..though its my personal stuff I end up pro..whatever, so no harm done on the office front.

Right now I am trying to read blogs + write this post + listen to music + thinking whether I should have a coffee or just hit the sack?

Why is life full of choices, and why do our choices seem wrong in hindsight...

I must stop looking at my hind...rather my past I left behind.

And frankly speaking, I do not know how many are going to reach this point, but if you do, I must really appreciate your patience for reading this gibberish so far...and at the same time admiring my patience of writing so far(its lighter on my conscience(to hell with spellings) to not call it gibberish while writing).

And on an unrelated note, I got a promotion to the post of Senior Software Engg. ( the best compliment I received was from a dude was to refer to my designation as a Stupid Software Engg..ha ha ). So all you party hunters, increase that count by one more, and remember it when you catch me.

And on an even more unrelated note, coherent rambling completed one year of its existance. This one year has meant a lot to my life, and so has coherent rambling. My sincere thanks to all of my friends who read this blog, those who comment and those who not...you have always been a source of encouragement to me...and I dont think its wrong to name a few of you close to my heart here:

Neelima, Nupur, WD, Recca, Phantom, J, sophie, Somu, Smyta, Melody....

and all who've read my blog ever....

just two words sum it up for me today "THANK YOU"

Deja Vu - 2

P.S. I wrote this when I was in love with a very special person..someone who taught me how to care, how to feel, how to find happiness in small things...how to dream..how to dare...how to love. Today, when its a full year of darkness in my heart, I guess there can be no better tribute to the person who was the first one to light up my heart, and also the first one to take the light out of it!

Date: 3-October-2003
Place: Computer Networks Lecture, 7th Sem
Time: 0930 am

Love. Said to be the most wonderful thing that can happen to any human. The association of a person with love starts from the day he is born, his first love being his mother, who is the reason for his being. As he grows up, he starts falling in love with a lot of people and a lot of things around him. But he never understands what is love. True, very true that love can be felt, can be experienced, can be shared, can be given and takenm but yet cannot be understood. You never know why you are in love. Maybe that is what true love is all about, being in it but not knowing why you are in it.

Love may be the most wonderful gift to get, but nothing satisfies more than giving love. The feeling is something that is worth all the happiness you give, but remember, give it without expecting any returns. For love does not see, it is blind.

adios..